On May 21, 1998 I met the man I would spend the rest of my life with. I had seen John's name in the directory before and decided I'd try to talk to him. We immediately felt comfortable with one another and soon discovered we had alot in common. We're both Leo's and are hopeless romantics. We share a love for life, outdoors, traveling, music, interests in movies. We're both Christians and share family values. He loves kids (thank goodness! I have 4) and he loves me from the bottom of his heart. I've never known a more caring, giving, loved filled man in my life. He's a gift sent from Heaven that I will cherish everyday for the rest of my life!
I sometimes sit and think of his reaction when I first admitted I loved him. The silence that followed scared me a little. I was so scared that I would never hear from him again. I thought I had "stepped over the line", but when he recovered and told me he felt the same way I was elated! I couldn't sleep or anything that night. The following days I started wondering what he was doin at times during the day. Wondering if he were thinking about me or if he would be online to talk to me that night. For the last seven months that is all I have thought about.
He sent me a file of a song, Precious & Few, that he wanted me to listen to. It is exactly how we feel about one another. Our time together is just that---Precious and sometimes very few. Listening to it makes me feel so close to him, like I can just reach out and touch him.
One of the first times we did a video conference, he blew me a kiss. I wanted to express my feelings but wasn't sure how to do it. When we were saying goodbye I typed in "a big sloppy wet, tonsil tickling, tongue wrestling kiss". I will carry the expression on his face for the rest of my life. I can't describe it but it was cute and absolutely hilarious! I didn't think it was possible to love someone anymore.
I've made him my whole life over the past months and will do anything to keep him happy. Nothing can seperate us now, not even the distance that keeps us apart. I know when he is upset or worried when were not online. You can call it instinct or anything you want, but I do know.
We have helped each other in so many ways. Not having met in person, yet, he and I have made some wonderful plans with one another. We have struggled through the rough times and each time coming out stronger and deeper in love. Online romances are very difficult to keep a fire burning, but John and I have succeeded in so many ways.
The love we share will never be broken, nothing can come between us. The worst part is over, finally! In just two short months we will be together and will have the rest of our lives to make each other happier. I am always told by my friends that he is one lucky man. I smile to myself and have to tell them that no, I am truly the lucky one, even though John disagrees. *smile* In all honesty, we are both very lucky to have found one another. We've found what we've been looking for and needing in our lives for a very long time. He came in just in time to be my "knight in shinning armour".When we decided to start our own webring, it wasn't like we needed more stuff to occupy us. lol. This is just one step for us. He has always incouraged my web design, incouraged me to start my own service. In case you might be wondering, he is the reason the site is here now. His support and unconditional love has brought this a long way.We share a love for wolves, he got me hooked! I decided when creating this site that I would dedicate more than our love to this page. We hope you share our love for these beautiful animals as well! When I started creating this site, all I could think about was how much I love him and want him to be proud of the work I've done. He is always proud of my work, don't get me wrong, but this one had to be special. I hope I've succeeded!On November 21, 1998 we were Virtually Married The day I finally get to go home as his real wife will be the happiest day of my life. I will be fulfilled in so many ways. He says I'm going to spoil him rotten, I say, "I can't wait!".
I come to this place and search through these keys,
to find the right words, and I settle on these.
Alone in my life, no caring, no love,
searching for friendships, for a sign from above.
Cyber typed friends, seems strange right at first,
then finding some here, they help quinch my thirst.
Then with a click of a button, and clearing of screen,
my hunger returns, with friends gone from the scene.
I followed this pattern, a life so mundane,
until heart told my head, "You must be insane!"
Ready to give up on life, and on love,
you came to me, my guardian, my sign from above.
You scooped up this mess that was my whole life,
you caressed my tired heart, and removed all the strife.
You say I'm perfection, with beauty and charm,
you say you will guard me and keep me from harm.
I say you complete what was missing in me,
you stir love in my heart as big as a sea.
You tell me I'm an angel sent you from above,
that I'm that beat in your heart, I'm the reason you love.
I'm just me, I just couldn't believe,
special to anyone, well it's impossible to conceive.
I was afraid you would leave here and it filled me with dread,
then you visited my dreams, took my hand as you lead.
You showed me you loved me and held me so tight,
removed all my fears and it all felt so right.
Now over distance our souls do ever entwine,
you've asked that we marry, so you'll forever be mine.
I tell all the world of this love that we share,
I thank God every day, for the first day you were there.
"For God so loved the world He sent His only Son..."
For God so loved me He sent me You...
For John...
From Leslie's Heart
 
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